Flip Flop

I have been going back and forth all morning (and last night too) as to whether or not to post part of what I wrote yesterday for NaNoWriMo. What was I thinking to want to do this? I am really shite with self imposed deadlines. :-/ I have always dabbled with writing short stories and fiction. A decade and a half ago I played with writing a romance novel, it was rejected and I have no idea where it is now. I do have a historical nonfiction that was published a decade ago along with a magazine article. I never made one cent of profit off any of it. All day yesterday I tried to write and nothing came from my fingers. The page remained blank well into last night. Steven and I talked while the TV played in the background, he played online games for a bit and I sat here trying to bang out something. The post below is a piece of what I wrote. I am in agony here and if you don't see a post below, well, that means I changed my mind and took it down. My new doctor's appointment was changed at the last minute monday to this morning. I am off to hear the baby's heartbeat and decide if I like this doctor or will have to find yet another. I'll be around later, somewhere, trying to bang out more for the novel I have told myself I will write. Me and Vicki make a good writing support team, huh? Although I am not expecting a monkey or anything else to fly out of my ass today or any day following. LOL